Welcome to the Messy Middle!

Step into the world and the life of your new favorite author. Take a look around and get to know me, my work, and the millions of emotions and thoughts I feel on a daily basis.

  • How Writing Helped Me Survive Loneliness

    One facet of growth that everyone absolutely loves to forget about is how lonely a new era can be. In the early stages of the next adventure, all you have time to do is focus on finding your footing and getting your bearings. Once that foundation is laid and you can finally sit back and…

  • The Versions of Myself That I Had to Outgrow

    While moving to a new city and starting over is always so wonderful, people often use it as an excuse to forget the past. I believe that we should honor the past. The person we were before that move or whatever major life event we are stepping into, taking time to reflect on where we…

  • The Fantasy of Moving to a New City and Becoming Someone Else

    What some people claim is a dream was something I got to live out as a reality. Young, alive, and living in a big city. In fact, I did it a couple of times. Each time brought me something new and exciting, and some not-so-exciting moments. The craziest part of it all, though? I think…

  • The Cities That Changed My Life

    Hey, divas! Did you miss me? I was a busy woman this holiday weekend, as Sabrina Carpenter would say. The Fourth of July is my second favorite holiday, so I could not focus on anything professional while I was living my best life with my family in Fort Lauderdale, Florida. While you may think that…

  • Growing Up and Getting Older as a Young Gay Man

    Well, we have reached the end of Pride Month. Another June in the history books. As each one passes, I always try to take away something new. That could be a changed perspective, a deep dive into queer media I have never seen, or having gone through an experience that I hadn’t before. Last year,…

  • Why Closure is So Rare in Gay Dating

    Ahh, there’s nothing like good ole detachment. Men are just SO darn good at it, too. It’s so horrific to go through, yet we always go back for me. Will we ever learn our lesson? Probably not, but we can have hope, right?             If you thought gay men were more in touch with their…

  • The Pressure to Have the Perfect Gay Life

    You remember that line from my post on Thursday about how being gay automatically means I’ll be successful? Well, if you don’t, you’re lucky. Today, we are going to break down that sentiment much further. The expectations we gay men are assigned after coming out are both incredibly fun yet very unrealistic in the long…

  • Things Gay Men Pretend Don’t Hurt (But Do)

    On the surface, gay men appear to be one of the most resilient sects of society. In actuality, there are a lot of us who struggle to breathe constantly. It doesn’t matter if you’re gay, straight, or something in between; men in general are simply not capable of always being strong. While I definitely cannot…

  • The Fear of Being “Too Much” as a Gay Man

    While I’ve been focusing on media and how it relates to my life during Pride Month, we’re going to shift this week into something deeper. I have heard the question “Why do we still need a Pride Month?” so many times in my less than a decade of being out. I want to focus on…

  • Movies That Made Me Feel Seen

    Much like music, the movies they love act as a way to get a glimpse into the facets of people’s inner thoughts, emotions, and experiences. Though everyone has their own style and taste, the beauty of it all is understanding how these pieces show the uniqueness of the person. In the last decade or so,…

  • Songs that Describe the Eras of My Life Since Coming Out

    If there’s one universal thing you’ll find in any gay man anywhere, it’s an intense love for music. I’ve never once met another gay man who wasn’t completely infatuated with a playlist of songs that accurately reflect their life at that given moment. To form an analogy, watching a multi-hour-long series of music videos is…

  • Why Gay Loneliness is Different Than People Think

    For the entire month of June, I’ll be doing a deep dive into gay culture and experience. It’s Pride Month, after all! There are so many facets to cover, and I’m lucky enough to hold a platform that is entirely dedicated to life in the gay community. Stemming from Monday’s post, in which I discussed…

  • The Situationship Era is Exhausting!

    A Deep Dive into Modern Intimacy and Dating I feel like I could be writing my dissertation for a PHD in Failed Romance right now. There is no one more qualified in this subject area than I. While I understand that I am not perfect, I have a strong inclination that the majority of single…

  • Dating Apps Make Me Feel Like The Bachelor! But Why?

    I think my online persona makes it pretty obvious that I’d love to be the star of a reality show or a dating competition. If you read Mishaps & Mistakes, you could probably attest that the first half felt like you were reading biographies of the men competing for my heart. This is not accidental.…

  • Fictional Men That Give Me Hope in the Reality of Dating

    It would be so easy to continue on about how problematic men are, what problems they cause, and how they seldom do good by society. But not today. We are going to do a total 180, and I’m going to let you inside my mind for a minute. I’ve made it very clear that dating…

  • What Gay Men Actually Mean When They Say They Are Emotionally Unavailable

    It doesn’t matter if you’re gay, straight, or something in between. We’ve all heard it said: “It’s not you, it’s me.” There may not be a more frustrating line than that one. Especially since it always seems to come after the dude spent weeks or months making you feel like his top priority. Men have…

  • How Social Media Has Distorted My View of Adulthood

    I used to imagine I’d have everything figured out by 25. I’d be married, have a kid or two, work a job that I loved and made lots of money doing. Now, here I am, almost halfway to being 27, very single, childless, and working a job that I cannot afford to live off of.…

  • Songs That Feel Queer-Coded, Without Being Explicitly Queer

    If you have ever had the pleasure of knowing a queer person, there is absolutely no doubt in my mind that they have tried to educate you on their music taste. It’s a canonical event, actually. The gays watch music videos at the same intensity level as an Olympian trains for their respective race. I…

  • Things I Have Done While Stepping Away

    Is it not totally ironic that the most recent post I’ve shared on here was about staying consistent, and then I totally disappeared for a month? Don’t take this the wrong way, but I genuinely do not care how that makes you feel about me. Any chance I get to just hide away and live…

  • How I Stay Consistent Without Forcing Creativity

    There’s something so insanely special about being a writer. Having the ability and the honor of being able to tell a story is such a gift. The old tale goes that practice makes perfect. I would like to argue and say that you cannot always practice your way into being good at something. In the…

  • Why I Take Time Away from Writing

    Well, well, well. I left you all with such an impactful story on Valentine’s Day and ghosted you right after. My sincere apologies for pulling a Taylor Swift on you. I guess you could say I am in my reputation era currently. And honestly, in some ways, I am. You see, I cannot just churn…

  • An Open Letter from a Valentine’s Day Hater

    I’ve always hated Valentine’s Day. And I mean that I genuinely hate it. In my opinion, it is a pointless and greedy holiday. Major retailers, restaurants, and other services capitalize on the principle that if you don’t spend half your fortune on the person you love on this one specific day of the year, you…

  • Characters I Relate to and Why

    People forget that the ideas writers come up with all stem from a different source. Every character a writer creates is a culmination of parts and pieces from characters the writer idolized before. But this is not a post about a fictional character and who I developed them from. This is about me and the…

  • How I Organize My Story Ideas So They Don’t Get Lost

    I am one of the most OCD-style people I know. I like things to be organized a certain way; my towels must be folded in the style I like or I’ll flip. It shouldn’t come as a shock when I tell you that I treat my writing the same way. My ideas and manuscripts are…

  • Writing While Tired, Busy, and Unmotivated

    I cannot even begin to tell you how much of a struggle it is to write sometimes. You’re probably thinking to yourself, “But Joseph, this is what you do.” Yeah, yeah, yeah, whatever. I’m still a human. I get exhausted just thinking about whatever god-awful responsibility reality is going to throw my way today. It’s…

  • 10 LGBTQ+ Books That Changed My Life

                After writing that post expressing how it feels to work my sexuality into my creativity, I think it’s only fair that we have a little fun. I told you all about my three favorite books of all time, but this list is a little different. Today, we are going to dive into my Top…

  • How My Identity Shapes My Writing

    There’s something really special about being a gay man. Especially in this day and age, when it is so much more commonplace. There’s still work to be done for my community, but we’re moving towards a good place. I feel it in my bones.             With that being said, I have the amazing opportunity to…

  • Why I Still Believe in Love, Even After Heartbreak

    Romantic comedies have always been my favorite kind of movie. Well, always being since I was fourteen and started comprehending the deeper meanings behind movies. I think the reason I love them so much is that I am an eternal optimist and hopeless romantic. It is entirely fitting that an optimistic hopeless romantic adores rom-coms.…

  • The Line Between Vulnerability and Performance

    Mishaps & Mistakes was my debut story. In a way, it was also like my debut in the world. By the time I released my book, I was no stranger to the world. I had thousands of Instagram followers. I met an infinite number of people while working as a flight attendant. I had friends…

  • The Emotional Roller Coaster of Creating Something

    Part of my mission and this online discourse I do is to share what I have learned from my experiences in this life. It never occurred to me that I should share how emotionally taxing it can be to do something vulnerable, creative, and risky. I guess you could say most people just chalk it…